Mom's sick. Where do I begin? Do I begin with her being rushed to the emergency room on Thursday when her oxygen was so low and her BP so low that after the fact her doctor shared that he didn't think she was going to make it? Or do I begin with her being diagnosed with Alzheimer’s a few years ago, after we tried to tell her doctors that way back in 2001 or 2002? It's been at least five years we have been dealing with concerns that progressively got worse and more and more alarming. We sold her house in 2004 or 2005, when she moved in with Mary and she seemed to give up... she didn't enjoy life, her grandchildren, holidays; things that always made her smile didn't even matter anymore to her. Oh and there was this David character that she was convinced was visiting her and was going to marry her.... we never did figure out where he came from, but he was real to her just the same.
It hurts to think about what she has been through, to write it out here... but it helps.
Keep it real... that's what i say ... keep it real. Real is sometimes harsh but real just the same...
Real is pneumonia and swallowing being an issue because Alzheimer’s causes your body to lose the sensation in your throat that makes you swallow. Real is not knowing who your children are or when they have a birthday because this disease takes over your mind. Real is realizing no matter how sweet, dependable, diligent, efficient, faithful, long-suffering, loyal, or wonderful a person is, you can wake up one day and get this or another disease that can strip your life away from you. It's not fair, that's what "real" is. Life is not fair.
I know this sounds cynical and I am grateful that God is helping me - to be strong - but I must vent how much it hurts to see someone so undeserving end up at this point in their life. But many people end up with what's not deserved.... many people... not just my mom.
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Reality is sometimes trying I agree. I cannot offer any more words of encouragement than what I read from the Bible. I pray for you everyday and I admire your strength. We are all here only a short while. Yes, I have to tell myself this also.
The weakness of God is stronger than man’s strength.” (1 Corinthians 1:25)
"Be strong and courageous! Do not tremble or be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go."
(Joshua 1:9)
I trust in you, O LORD; I say, 'You are my God.' My times are in your hands." (Psalm 31:14-15)
Rejoice in our confident hope. Be patient in trouble, and keep on praying.
Romans 12:12, NLT
For I hold you by your right hand— I, the LORD your God. And I say to you, `Don't be afraid. I am here to help you.
Isaiah 41:13
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